[ (You're looking, but you can't say there's anything "shy" about a kilowatt star.) ]
You might as well enjoy yourself while you're here, since there's nothing and no one for you to be weird about. Unless you're gonna be that way about the new people I know.
You always got weird when I talked about my family members, and you didn't seem that okay when I mentioned my friends and companion, either.
[ ... So is that not being weird? I'm really not jealous, okay? Not of your party, anyway, or so Loop had said, which... can only mean the opposite, of being jealous of Siffrin, but that's silly. All Loop would have to do is say hello, even if they'd never remember through the loops.
... Well. That does make it hard to make friends, but-- ]
[ It was weird, for reasons Loop has decided to keep for themselves, and will continue to do exactly that. Given they don't really elaborate too much on it and opting to reply to that later comment. Ignoring the spike of that ugly feeling at how easy it apparently has been here. ]
It is different here. [ They'll give them that. ] But I'm not necessarily here to make friends! There's no point in doing so. Not when eventually we'll go back and they'll simply all forget, the rest of them moving on with their own lives!
[ So why go through the trouble of something unnecessary? ]
[ Siffrin flinches a little at that, gaze dropping away as he buries his face into the cloak to hide.
(... Yeah, it's useless. There's no point. Just like--) ]
There's no point in helping my family members out, either. We beat the King without all that before. It didn't change anything either. But I...
[ (... Still do it, still want to, even now you would, because it's nice to be loved, to be thought of, even if it's futile, even if it's temporary, even if they'll always, always forget you won't.
[ It's unfair. In more ways than one. It's just the simple reality of it all, something Loop has chosen to go by and stick to but.
That's also how it is. The want, the wish to still do things, to find and make some meaning. To find any meaning. Just anything would do! No matter how much one might struggle and find any reason to latch onto and --
A small sigh, shoulders slumping a little. Slowly, a hand raises to dip that hat a bit lower on the other's head, partly to offer Siffrin more cover to hide - but mostly to hide their own expression. The conflict of their own emotions. Torn between one and the other. ]
It's still something. It isn't as if I don't understand. [ (...) ] Well, I'll give it some thought! Something fun to pass the time isn't that terrible of an idea.
[ A different matter whether they make true to their words. Tired eyes peering out at the rest of the greenhouse. ]
[ (Personally, even if romance isn't your thing, you'd like to see him bond with a monster.) ]
The other two... Gebura and Elysium, they won't be there. [ What's good descriptors. Ignore the warmth that comes here. ] Gebura's hair... is kind of like the overcast sky. She says it's red, but that's what it looks like to me. She has a lot of it, and rarely smiles. Elysium smiles a lot, but it's different. He's a traveler like me, but fussier than anyone I've ever met. I think he thinks I can't take care of myself.
[ There's no ignoring it, not with the way Loop watches them even despite his earlier brief hide. They lean a little, fixating the gaze off, looking away from that warmth. ]
I remember them both, small brief interactions with them on my arrival day. [ A pointed look directed at him now, eyes curving. ] He wouldn't be wrong, you really can't! Why else would you have me?
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Like you would've done anything different.
[ Snorefest of a star person!!! ]
It was fun. Maybe... there'll be another like it you can come to, too.
[ Like!!! The dance!!! They should also go to!!! ]
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[ They aren't. ]
Another? Mmmm... maybe, maybe! But must I?
[ But wwwhhhyyyyyyy. ]
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Why not?
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[ ... ] Because I'm shy, of course! Everything is so new and intimidating for little 'ole me!
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You might as well enjoy yourself while you're here, since there's nothing and no one for you to be weird about. Unless you're gonna be that way about the new people I know.
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[ #innocent. ] It isn't as if I control you, Stardust. You're free to spend your time with whatever people you please!
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[ ... So is that not being weird? I'm really not jealous, okay? Not of your party, anyway, or so Loop had said, which... can only mean the opposite, of being jealous of Siffrin, but that's silly. All Loop would have to do is say hello, even if they'd never remember through the loops.
... Well. That does make it hard to make friends, but-- ]
It's different here.
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It is different here. [ They'll give them that. ] But I'm not necessarily here to make friends! There's no point in doing so. Not when eventually we'll go back and they'll simply all forget, the rest of them moving on with their own lives!
[ So why go through the trouble of something unnecessary? ]
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(... Yeah, it's useless. There's no point. Just like--) ]
There's no point in helping my family members out, either. We beat the King without all that before. It didn't change anything either. But I...
[ (... Still do it, still want to, even now you would, because it's nice to be loved, to be thought of, even if it's futile, even if it's temporary, even if they'll always, always forget you won't.
You're a real piece of work.) ]
... Anyway, it makes the days fun. That's all.
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[ It's unfair. In more ways than one. It's just the simple reality of it all, something Loop has chosen to go by and stick to but.
That's also how it is. The want, the wish to still do things, to find and make some meaning. To find any meaning. Just anything would do! No matter how much one might struggle and find any reason to latch onto and --
A small sigh, shoulders slumping a little. Slowly, a hand raises to dip that hat a bit lower on the other's head, partly to offer Siffrin more cover to hide - but mostly to hide their own expression. The conflict of their own emotions. Torn between one and the other. ]
It's still something. It isn't as if I don't understand. [ (...) ] Well, I'll give it some thought! Something fun to pass the time isn't that terrible of an idea.
[ A different matter whether they make true to their words. Tired eyes peering out at the rest of the greenhouse. ]
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... So you'll come to the gala?
[ Circling right back around. ]
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Too afraid to attend without your starry partner? I'm sure you'll do just fine.
[ Aaand the tease is back. But a pinch of their expression before they sigh. ]
Fine. I'll go to the blinding gala.
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Step one of getting you used to people.
[ Like they aren't socialized. ]
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[ Never mind that it's different with them. ]
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[ Please be nice to Callisto... ]
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[ No. ]
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For reference, he looks like he belongs on the cover of Handsome Young Men Falling Into Beautiful Heartbreaking Madness.
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So, "pathetic"?
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[ Truly a feat. Loop will agree with them, Siffrin is sure. ]
I think Mira would cheer for him to die, though. It'd be cathartic.
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I think it'd be pretty cathartic as well!
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[ (Personally, even if romance isn't your thing, you'd like to see him bond with a monster.) ]
The other two... Gebura and Elysium, they won't be there. [ What's good descriptors. Ignore the warmth that comes here. ] Gebura's hair... is kind of like the overcast sky. She says it's red, but that's what it looks like to me. She has a lot of it, and rarely smiles. Elysium smiles a lot, but it's different. He's a traveler like me, but fussier than anyone I've ever met. I think he thinks I can't take care of myself.
[ Because he can't. ]
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[ There's no ignoring it, not with the way Loop watches them even despite his earlier brief hide. They lean a little, fixating the gaze off, looking away from that warmth. ]
I remember them both, small brief interactions with them on my arrival day. [ A pointed look directed at him now, eyes curving. ] He wouldn't be wrong, you really can't! Why else would you have me?
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[ Even if! They kind of are! Siffrin lifts his head, curious. ]
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