[ Siffrin flinches a little at that, gaze dropping away as he buries his face into the cloak to hide.
(... Yeah, it's useless. There's no point. Just like--) ]
There's no point in helping my family members out, either. We beat the King without all that before. It didn't change anything either. But I...
[ (... Still do it, still want to, even now you would, because it's nice to be loved, to be thought of, even if it's futile, even if it's temporary, even if they'll always, always forget you won't.
[ It's unfair. In more ways than one. It's just the simple reality of it all, something Loop has chosen to go by and stick to but.
That's also how it is. The want, the wish to still do things, to find and make some meaning. To find any meaning. Just anything would do! No matter how much one might struggle and find any reason to latch onto and --
A small sigh, shoulders slumping a little. Slowly, a hand raises to dip that hat a bit lower on the other's head, partly to offer Siffrin more cover to hide - but mostly to hide their own expression. The conflict of their own emotions. Torn between one and the other. ]
It's still something. It isn't as if I don't understand. [ (...) ] Well, I'll give it some thought! Something fun to pass the time isn't that terrible of an idea.
[ A different matter whether they make true to their words. Tired eyes peering out at the rest of the greenhouse. ]
[ (Personally, even if romance isn't your thing, you'd like to see him bond with a monster.) ]
The other two... Gebura and Elysium, they won't be there. [ What's good descriptors. Ignore the warmth that comes here. ] Gebura's hair... is kind of like the overcast sky. She says it's red, but that's what it looks like to me. She has a lot of it, and rarely smiles. Elysium smiles a lot, but it's different. He's a traveler like me, but fussier than anyone I've ever met. I think he thinks I can't take care of myself.
[ There's no ignoring it, not with the way Loop watches them even despite his earlier brief hide. They lean a little, fixating the gaze off, looking away from that warmth. ]
I remember them both, small brief interactions with them on my arrival day. [ A pointed look directed at him now, eyes curving. ] He wouldn't be wrong, you really can't! Why else would you have me?
[ But hmm, crosses their arms with a tilt of their head. ]
Well, your Red Mist isn't the socializing sort. Content enough to keep herself, but won't shy away from conversation and exchanging what she knows. Your other one is meanwhile the almost complete opposite regarding sociailzing. Almost shamelessly so. Eager to stick his nose anywhere and everywhere, like a dog!
That sounds right. Gebura doesn't like puns, but she's fond of cats, quiet places, and doesn't dislike sweets. Elysium... talks a lot, but feels a little distant at times. Even so, he listens well and wants others to smile. I think. So that's probably why he puts his nose into everything.
Loop listens, bringing a hand up to play with that little fish drone once again. A small nudge, leading it with a finger. Something to do as they roll this information around in their head. Information important to Siffrin, whether it is to Loop is hard to say. PArt of them wondering why he even feels the need to tell them but.
Begrudgingly, they also understand a little. ] Picking up on them much like your family before, are you? [ The Researcher, the Fighter, the Housemaiden, the Kid. These past months coming to learn little tidbits of his acquired friends here now. Does it fill that void? That absence?
(...) ] Is it easier learning about them without the risk of time looping? Or harder?
I learned about my family members before the loops too, you know. Even if... it wasn't as much as I'd thought it was.
[ (You had come to known them as people, those countless days together. Their likes and dislikes. What each of them were capable of. How they were as strangers, and then as friends -- as family members. But you hadn't thought further than that. What might trouble them. Their dreams. Where they'd like to go, or who they'd like to become.
Stuff like that
didn't really matter to you, who had nowhere and no one to be. Who seemed to have no troubles. They hadn't reached out either, though. Still haven't.
You think of sculpting with Elysium, of sitting at the beach with Gebura, of Callisto's laugh. Is it harder? Not having that safety net? Has it filled the void, or is it only adding to it?
...) ]
I don't know. There really hasn't been any trouble [ aside from almost stabbing Gebura once ] or anything like that, so I haven't... really thought about it. I don't know if I've learned a lot about them, either.
[ Just like how they haven't learned a lot about Siffrin, and yet have learned enough just by being around him. ]
... I see. Well, I was just curious is all! After all, during the loops, it felt like you wouldn't think much about what would happen if you break the loop. But the experience here has been a bit enlightening in a way to you, hasn't it?
Getting to live your life a bit finally outside the loops. [ Feeling your life tick forward. ] Getting to actually know other people instead of the same ones over and over. [ Not the same script over and over. ]
So I was just wondering. Has it changed your thoughts since then? Or are you trying not to think about that as well?
[ (There is... a sick kind of comfort, in the lines you know. How saying one thing will get a certain reaction. How messing with a scene in another way would get something new. But changing something could end poorly too, so it's best to avoid that -- stick with the lines you know, the replies you know.
As boring as they get. As easy to zone out as they are. There's some lines you never skip, never get tired of hearing, but it
twists
your
insides
to know that they're only saying that because you make them because you know what to say and it doesn't mean anything anymore if you say it because it's just to get a reaction and you ) ]
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(... Yeah, it's useless. There's no point. Just like--) ]
There's no point in helping my family members out, either. We beat the King without all that before. It didn't change anything either. But I...
[ (... Still do it, still want to, even now you would, because it's nice to be loved, to be thought of, even if it's futile, even if it's temporary, even if they'll always, always forget you won't.
You're a real piece of work.) ]
... Anyway, it makes the days fun. That's all.
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[ It's unfair. In more ways than one. It's just the simple reality of it all, something Loop has chosen to go by and stick to but.
That's also how it is. The want, the wish to still do things, to find and make some meaning. To find any meaning. Just anything would do! No matter how much one might struggle and find any reason to latch onto and --
A small sigh, shoulders slumping a little. Slowly, a hand raises to dip that hat a bit lower on the other's head, partly to offer Siffrin more cover to hide - but mostly to hide their own expression. The conflict of their own emotions. Torn between one and the other. ]
It's still something. It isn't as if I don't understand. [ (...) ] Well, I'll give it some thought! Something fun to pass the time isn't that terrible of an idea.
[ A different matter whether they make true to their words. Tired eyes peering out at the rest of the greenhouse. ]
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... So you'll come to the gala?
[ Circling right back around. ]
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Too afraid to attend without your starry partner? I'm sure you'll do just fine.
[ Aaand the tease is back. But a pinch of their expression before they sigh. ]
Fine. I'll go to the blinding gala.
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Step one of getting you used to people.
[ Like they aren't socialized. ]
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[ Never mind that it's different with them. ]
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[ Please be nice to Callisto... ]
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[ No. ]
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For reference, he looks like he belongs on the cover of Handsome Young Men Falling Into Beautiful Heartbreaking Madness.
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So, "pathetic"?
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[ Truly a feat. Loop will agree with them, Siffrin is sure. ]
I think Mira would cheer for him to die, though. It'd be cathartic.
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I think it'd be pretty cathartic as well!
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[ (Personally, even if romance isn't your thing, you'd like to see him bond with a monster.) ]
The other two... Gebura and Elysium, they won't be there. [ What's good descriptors. Ignore the warmth that comes here. ] Gebura's hair... is kind of like the overcast sky. She says it's red, but that's what it looks like to me. She has a lot of it, and rarely smiles. Elysium smiles a lot, but it's different. He's a traveler like me, but fussier than anyone I've ever met. I think he thinks I can't take care of myself.
[ Because he can't. ]
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[ There's no ignoring it, not with the way Loop watches them even despite his earlier brief hide. They lean a little, fixating the gaze off, looking away from that warmth. ]
I remember them both, small brief interactions with them on my arrival day. [ A pointed look directed at him now, eyes curving. ] He wouldn't be wrong, you really can't! Why else would you have me?
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[ Even if! They kind of are! Siffrin lifts his head, curious. ]
What was your impression of them?
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[ But hmm, crosses their arms with a tilt of their head. ]
Well, your Red Mist isn't the socializing sort. Content enough to keep herself, but won't shy away from conversation and exchanging what she knows. Your other one is meanwhile the almost complete opposite regarding sociailzing. Almost shamelessly so. Eager to stick his nose anywhere and everywhere, like a dog!
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That sounds right. Gebura doesn't like puns, but she's fond of cats, quiet places, and doesn't dislike sweets. Elysium... talks a lot, but feels a little distant at times. Even so, he listens well and wants others to smile. I think. So that's probably why he puts his nose into everything.
[ Important things to know! Apparently. ]
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Loop listens, bringing a hand up to play with that little fish drone once again. A small nudge, leading it with a finger. Something to do as they roll this information around in their head. Information important to Siffrin, whether it is to Loop is hard to say. PArt of them wondering why he even feels the need to tell them but.
Begrudgingly, they also understand a little. ] Picking up on them much like your family before, are you? [ The Researcher, the Fighter, the Housemaiden, the Kid. These past months coming to learn little tidbits of his acquired friends here now. Does it fill that void? That absence?
(...) ] Is it easier learning about them without the risk of time looping? Or harder?
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[ (You had come to known them as people, those countless days together. Their likes and dislikes. What each of them were capable of. How they were as strangers, and then as friends -- as family members. But you hadn't thought further than that. What might trouble them. Their dreams. Where they'd like to go, or who they'd like to become.
Stuff like that
didn't really matter to you, who had nowhere and no one to be. Who seemed to have no troubles. They hadn't reached out either, though. Still haven't.
You think of sculpting with Elysium, of sitting at the beach with Gebura, of Callisto's laugh. Is it harder? Not having that safety net? Has it filled the void, or is it only adding to it?
...) ]
I don't know. There really hasn't been any trouble [ aside from almost stabbing Gebura once ] or anything like that, so I haven't... really thought about it. I don't know if I've learned a lot about them, either.
[ Just like how they haven't learned a lot about Siffrin, and yet have learned enough just by being around him. ]
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... I see. Well, I was just curious is all! After all, during the loops, it felt like you wouldn't think much about what would happen if you break the loop. But the experience here has been a bit enlightening in a way to you, hasn't it?
Getting to live your life a bit finally outside the loops. [ Feeling your life tick forward. ] Getting to actually know other people instead of the same ones over and over. [ Not the same script over and over. ]
So I was just wondering. Has it changed your thoughts since then? Or are you trying not to think about that as well?
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As boring as they get. As easy to zone out as they are. There's some lines you never skip, never get tired of hearing, but it
twists
your
insides
to know that they're only saying that because you make them because you know what to say and it doesn't mean anything anymore if you say it because it's just to get a reaction and you ) ]
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Anyway. Time to answer.) ]
It's fun to get to know people.
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[ Not that they expected any differently. ]
Well, you'll have plenty of people to get to know here at least.
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[ It always is. Talking to someone else who doesn't remember. The coin sits heavier in their pocket. ]
Not bad. She's cheerful. But odd. Her name's March 7th, and she picked it herself.
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